My hands are really dry.
I remember now why I don’t paint my nails because they’re chipped and it doesn’t look very good and I’m not in high school anymore but someone told me the other day that nail polish remover makes your nails thinner and honestly that makes a lot of sense to me and it explains why my nails have been so much stronger in the past few years but the polish is chipping and I don’t know how to get it off without nail polish remover.
My hands are dry.
I did a good job today I washed the dishes and I cleaned up the recycling and I vaccumed and organized a part of my room that I never get to and then I ate ice cream and maybe it was the ice cream because eating ice cream is supposed to be fun and good but I ate too much and then I felt like a horrible person and now I have to sit in this room by myself and act like everything is okay and I think everything IS okay but my brain does this thing and you know it because you’re reading it and to get the whole picture you need to read these words as fast as you can and that’s what it’s like when my brain is spinning just words and words and words and my hand my hands my hands.
My hands are dry.
When my hands are dry my skin doesn’t feel like I think it’s supposed to like it’s slowly breaking apart and I’m left wondering what in the world is still inside and if it’s going to come out like water or sand and everything squeezes together and nails in my palm and lean lean lean I don’t think I’m supposed to lean and do people get tired of the leaning do I hurt them by the leaning because I can’t stomach that I can’t stomach hurting them because I’m leaning and the opposite of leaning is burying and I think that’d be easier but I think it’s hard to bury after you’ve leaned because when you go to bury the people you’ve leaned on will notice your weight is gone and I don’t know how to help them not notice and maybe helping them to not notice would help them in the long run.
My hands are dry. It’s uncomfortable.