You’re always on my mind.
Did you know that? I think of you at least once a day. It’s not like I haven’t moved on or I need to let go. I live my life day after day without you.
It’s not crippling like it used to be. Those days a couple of years ago when every moment was a test of my strength. It’s not like that any more. This morning I woke up, excited about the day in front of me. I loved the hours as they passed. I spoke to people I love, laughed with everything in me, and pushed my mind to create new and wonderful things.
But that doesn’t mean I don’t think of you.
I don’t picture my future with you in it anymore. I know I have lost your friendship and I don’t cling to what would have been.
(Actually, if I do think of what would have been, I’m glad things have happened the way they did.)
But I worry about you. I wonder about you. I pray for you daily, thanking God for your life, for the impact you had on mine, begging Him show you even more of Himself.
I have let go of our friendship. I have let go of what I used to think should have been. I have let go of what would have been, what could have been.
But I haven’t let go of you. Because as much as anyone else currently active in my life, you are a part of me. And you always will be. You’re always on my mind.