Thanksgiving.

It’s thanksgiving.

I love thanksgiving. And I have a lot to be thankful for.

It’s not socially acceptable to scream. I don’t mean talk angrily at someone. I don’t even mean yell. I mean scream. Like throat feels raw, don’t recognize your own voice, something coming up from the depths of your soul. That kind of scream.

And I really just want to scream.

I just feel so powerless. So stuck.

And hurt. And unheard. And limited.

It’s thanksgiving. And I love thanksgiving. And I have so, so, so much to be thankful for.

And I am. I am very thankful and grateful for all that I have in my life.

But—goodness, I hate this— I just…. I just don’t feel thankful. I am thankful. Truly. Believe me, I am. I just don’t feel it.

It’s thanksgiving. And I love thanksgiving.

-Melissa

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