Daily Haiku.

2.22.2016

Please just let me breathe
Please let me take a moment
Please– you’re hurting me.

2.21.2016

“But I can function.”
I’ve said the words many times
But now I wonder

2.20.2016

What is most striking
Is you are fine without me
And I’m floundering

2.19.2016

I suddenly thought,
‘Oh…this is how it could be…’
I felt and saw trust

2.18.2016

He said it again:
“There’s always another way.”
What a life he leads.

2.17.2016

I have only tears
Because that is what happens
When my friends are gone

2.16.2016

Life held my hand tight
Said, “I promise this won’t hurt.”
Then muffled my screams

2.15. 2016

It’s all too heavy
Sadness coats my very skin
This is all too much

2.14.2016

How can love cause pain?
Why do they not contradict?
I feel life and death

2.13.2016

Hours pass quickly
I lose myself in service
Sore feet are worth it

2.12.2016

I feel accepted
This feels easy– familiar
So why would I leave?

2.11.2016

I let myself speak
My opinion brushed aside
What happened to love?

2.10.2016

To-do lists drown me
I can’t focus on the words
Life leaves me behind

2.9.2016

I laugh and smile
But I can feel it inside
Fighting against me

2.8.2016

Like warmth to the soul
I feel contentment coat me
They make it worth it

2.7.2016

I got up today
When I should have stayed in bed
I am worse awake

2.6.2016

Anger isn’t real-
It’s a cover for sadness.
Both mix in my veins.

2.5.2016

The stages of grief:
The last one is acceptance
And it’s never reached

2.4.2016

Keep my eyes turned down
My attention can’t be kept
Please don’t look at me

2.3.2016

Keep all thoughts at bay
I do not have time to think
My eyes pained and raw

2.2.2016

Seek understanding
Try to describe the feelings.
Misguided advice

2.1.2016

Please don’t dismiss me
Not after all of this time
You can’t just give up

1.31.2016

I don’t want to sleep-
It will be worse tomorrow.
Why am I still here?

1.30.2016

Keep my hands busy
And keep my mind occupied
Give no room for thought

1.29.2016

Digging through the past
My breath quickens- my heart aches
As my mind finds you

1.28.2016

When the silence ends
(I’ve been quiet for so long)
There’s relief to speak

1.27.2016

Where did the day go?
How did it pass by unknown?
What have I become?

1.26.2016

You’ve asked several times
I relent- finally give.
Will you forget now?

1.25.2016

Please don’t break silence
Please do not ask me for more
Please be soft with me

1.24.2016

What is there to say?
The day passed by unnoticed
I do not feel real

1.23.2016
The silence I fill
Wrapped up in other’s stories
Keep my own at bay

1.22.2013
I can’t stop the tears
People are all around me
No one says a word.

1.21.2016

Tears my companion-
But I celebrate with you.
Don’t forget me. Please.

1.20.2016

My dear, sweet Riley:
I’m sorry I failed you, love.
I’m so, so sorry.

1.19.2016

I feel the tension
My every muscle twitching
My skin feels too tight

1.18.2016

Today was too hard
Too many tears hid away
The night is too short

1.17.2016

Not a word uttered
No pressure from the outside
The quiet keeps me

1.16.2016

What then shall I do?
If everything is a lie-
Where then shall I go?

1.15.2016

Who am I today?
Just- please- don’t leave me alone
My thoughts capture me.

1.14.2016

Keep your head turned up-
Maybe if you see the sky,
You won’t know you’ve drowned.

1.13.2016

I blame everyone
My loneliness is my fault
I’ve pushed all away

1.12.2016

Such mixed emotions.
With no desire to speak-
Just waiting to leave.

1.11.2016

“Mourn with those who mourn.”
Promise they are not alone-
Even if you are.

1.10.2016

I kept the blinds shut
I missed the world turning
It’s simple alone.

1.9.2016

No reason to speak.
The silence speaks for itself.
Go on- drown it out.

1.8.2016

Tired all day long
Yet when it is time to sleep
Bloodshot eyes kept wide

1.7.2016

Make your decision:
Tell me I’m not forgotten,
Or show me I am.

1.6.2016

Let me lie to you:
I will tell you I’m tired.
It will appease you.

1.5.2016

Sleep to drown it out;
Awake with breath in my lungs.
What gives such relief?

1.4.2016

I should feel something
Questions keep coming my way
Words paired with blank stares

1.3.2016

Beginnings again;
I can’t ignore all we’ve lost.
Yet I’m Yours alone.

1.2.2016

Paved thick with lyrics
Comfort to a weary soul
The same road followed

(So, in my quest to write a daily haiku, I realized after I did the first one yesterday that I was doing it wrong. From now on, they will be in the correct format (even if I find it limiting): 5 syllables for the first line, 7 for the second, 5 for the last.
-Melissa)

1.1.2016

“New” is just a word.
Pain slips through the new year-
I remain undone.

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