Four years, past to present
Yet you grace my latest dream
Unsettling, your kindness torn away
An understanding nestled in your eyes
One you ignore and I
Lean in toward
Four years, past to present
Your voice has left my memory
Your words that used to haunt
Have drifted away with the dandelions
In the unbearably strong wind
I cannot call your voice back to my mind
And mine is lost in the distance
Four years, past to present
All we shared
Severed
You thought it was a clean break
I have tried, desperately,
To control the bleeding
Left to manage the frayed ends
Four years, past to present
To the day
Reminded of the date
A heaviness rested upon me
Upon every limb
Upon my face
My chest
Dragged down to the deepest parts
No energy, no reason to fight
Not today
Tomorrow
Tomorrow the sun will wake me
And I will dance through every moment
I will smile and laugh and embrace
But today, I remember this
Remember you
Four years ago today
Of all the days I have been alive
That was one of the worst
Followed by months and months
And months of heartbreak
Today I feel the continuing effects
Like a wound that never properly healed
That still smarts when it rains
And today the clouds are covering
Four years, past to present
With not a word from you
No appology
No excuse
Not even an explanation
Still
I feel you missing from me
Missing you.
-Melissa